And if I am a Christian, I am the least of all.
for sure. I love these words in Romans:
neither death nor life,
nor angels nor demons, not as a verse
affirming my faith, but
because they sound like Poe: Neither
angels in heaven above,
nor demons down under the sea…
Also, I am convinced
that hell’s not a place, but a journey,
heaven’s not earned, but spent,
and prayer is just another name for song.
Demons dither when
I pray unceasingly through song.
I am persuaded that when
I die, the best of me will drone
eternally in tune
with gratitude for every song
I’ve ever sung.
I’d rather have a door that I could shut
to keep my morning space unoccupied, but
with someone always on the other side to meet
me there halfway between my wants and needs
mid-day when I’ve exhausted those first thoughts
that first light always brings like little beings caught
between another world and mine. I want
to bide my time in pondering but can’t.
I never can. By noon, I need relief
from what’s inside, or what’s outside needs me.
And that’s what doors are for. A door provides
an easy out when mystery collides
with what my mind can translate into words,
or should. When whispers only I have heard
beguile me most, an open door will end
the spell and save me for the world again.