It’s organic he says fleeing into swamp culture leaving behind the years of espresso and Roquefort observing the way that light illuminates the mud that thickens the water a haven for all types of menacing organism it’s fundamental he repeats locked inside a bathroom as refuge from the hellscape of his family trying to find a distance where he might recoil at a non-alarming pace inside him is a certain darkness that evades the moonlight that fails to propagate the shrilling of tree frogs the screeching of owls this magnificent heat that even nightfall can never break a sweat as pungent as sex divergent across the infrastructure of conduit the taste of nectar on his tongue.
You were still a distance before the city line where the fires were burning flames swelling like an ocean of narrative Cy Twombly flower-kissed in orange and red a desert blossom that seeds the dreams of a dying planet… remember the concept of millions and how it expanded beyond all limits remember the shape as gesture that surrounded the idea of seasons fading now into unrestricted congruence it’s a time for craftsmanship to resurrect itself after all these years of specialization it’s time to work on the shape of our bleeding gums and the frightful condition of our once fragrant gardens where weeds are spreading furiously.
Taking this as a harbinger of time still to come these brass and silver memories of childhood religion tall and bone-skinny in long black robes and white collar the choral trills and pocket change that clinks into the collection plate blue hair and crinkled skin everything observed from a place of never-sanctioned mockery the leaves are falling in the churchyard horse chestnut fruit splits open spilling out the rich brown seed ancient language on ancient stone that fades back into forgotten centuries the stained-glass windows are dull from outside but once within the light spills color opening up the space where kind-hearted folks are sitting quietly.
A mystery is welded into platonic irony sharp metallic edges glinting silver in a concrete world harsh sounds are magnified echoing through a cavernous space when attempts are made to define the exact meaning of friendship parameters mapped as axes as a graph is formed in n-dimensional space where one is always gleaming edging light through bandwidth defined as elegy beyond the wire perimeter you find a meadow sinking into indigo as day’s end looms there is still sufficient visibility cars leave one by one a delicate dance of compact spacing home is just a metaphor for temporary relief hoping there will be no rain tonight because the one thing everyone is sure of is that this grid has been breaking down for decades.
The taste of nectar was on his tongue but his feet
were frozen into blocks of ice as he walked through the rain
just another man in a long dark overcoat a brimmed
hat protecting his head from the weather a head full
of memories of oiled torsos slithering and naked
in an overheated room of breakfast mornings
with coffee and eggs and fresh fruit driving though
the sunlit valley with the snow-capped peaks all around
and the sound of laughter the softness of memory
and touch and a heart-bursting tenderness and then
so suddenly it was over and now he walks the city
blocks oblivious to weather driving his thoughts
like a nail into the firmament watching it crack and split
apart rendering into darkness elliptical darkness pure.
Paul Ilechko is a British American poet and occasional songwriter who lives with his partner in Lambertville, New Jersey. His work has appeared in many journals, including The Bennington Review, The Night Heron Barks, deLuge, Stirring, and The Inflectionist Review. He has also published several chapbooks.
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